Do you ever look at blogs and feel so inadequate???? I hate it, I hate feeling like that. Are my kids happy? Yes. Do they know they are loved? Yes. Shouldn't that be what matters? So why do I worry about it??? Aren't there better things that I could worry about?
Tomorrow I will take Max to First grade and leave him there. I will leave him with a stranger, one he wouldn't even look at or say hi to today when we met her. I will be sending him with a lunch in his lunch box, but will he eat it? Will he be able to get to the bathroom in time?
When I drop him off will I be able to hold it together? Or will I end up sobbing in the car because my Max will be gone ALL day.
Tomorrow I will drop Max off and then I will take Owen with me to my in laws. He will probably cry and tell me how bad he wants to go to school. It will break my heart and make me feel horrible that I didn't put him into preschool this year. But I didn't so that I could have some one on one time with him. Time that I look forward to. But was it a good reason? Or just selfish?
I think those things are more important. That I care to worry about all of these things. It is not all about what I buy him, or how he looks, or anything other than the fact that I love my kids and I want nothing but the best for them.
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7 comments:
Pot here, letting you know that you are a GREAT MOM! Those boys love you soo much and they know that too. You don't have to buy them everything they ever want or have a fancy schmancy blog with daily blog posts. The most important things aren't always tangible.
Max will have such a great time at school tomorrow. Yes you will probably cry but that's normal and only shows how much you love Maxwell.
This next year will be a super special time for you an Owen too. He will probably miss Max at first but he'll get over it. I can't wait to hear the stories from the different adventures you and Owen will have!
Aww thanks pot :)
1. i wish you would blog more often:)
2. i'll be at home crying too. wait, i'm sitting here crying now.
3. you care. that's all that matters. i hate that you would feel any different.
4. lunch? ellie hardly eats at home. i can't deal.
5. this preschool teacher is an advocate of ONE year of preschool:) jdogg is only coming because it's better than the babysitter.
you are such a good mom!!! I know Reese doesn't start full time school for awhile but it already makes me nervous so I can only image what you must be feeling. It will be nice to have some one on one time with Owen...that is a good thing. Love that you posted...miss you tons!
Hill! You are great! A great mom, a great wife, a great daughter, and for my #1 a GREAT FRIEND! Love you tons! Good luck today.
You are a great Mom, I see it everyday. I think it will be much better to hear them say "My mom let us play in the dirt" than "My mom's blog looked great". Your boys are growing up with memories that they will cherish and you will too. Not to mention that Lily thinks your a super great 2nd Mom (I love you aunt silly!)
i was also thinking....
you are like the QUEEN mom of holiday fun for your kids.... and you rock at digital scrapping and documenting your family.
everybody has their thing.
some moms love to blog, and blogs are a visual thing out there for anyone to see, but it doesn't mean because others don't see it, that it's not there:)
to add to monica... one day your kids are going to be super glad that you kept a scrapbook for them, and they'll say "mom's scrapbooks look good." and you'll be proud of yourself. you know, we played in the dirt, and she put it down in the record so we could remember:)
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